When I do it again

In what feels like a lifetime ago, I decided to build my first, real startup. From February 2010 to February 2014, I served as the co-Founder and CEO of a small company named CPUsage. Me and two amazing co-founders took a crazy idea, explored a big problem space, began building a prototype, raised venture capital, built a team, built a couple products, flirted with providing value to a market, and then failed miserably. Four years, about a million in outside funding, destroyed personal lives and finances of at least one co-founder, and we had nothing to show for it. No meaningful revenue, no product worth something to others, no acqui-hire.

These were the most enjoyable and educational years of my career! I loved every minute of it! I learned more than I imagine an MBA or any set of degrees could teach. I’m a better human for this experience, and a better professional. Failure and all.

I learned so much about so many things, and in this blog post today, I want to focus on what I learned about what it takes to be successful when starting a company. Specifically doing so with the intent to innovate, grow rapidly, and return outsized rewards to employees and investors….in other words, a startup.

I try to limit regret in my life, but I do seek opportunities to improve myself by learning from my past. Through my experiences co-founding and leading CPUsage from 2010-2014, here is some of what I’ll do differently next time I start a startup.

Go deeper with potential customers

In short, I became a Product Manager after CPUsage because I quickly realized that we failed in part due to one specific reason: we didn’t go deep enough with customer discovery. We talked to a bunch of people, there was no shortage of potential clients or simply just people to learn from. The problem is that we got too excited, too easily. We stayed at the top level of the problem, we didn’t dig deeper to understand the root of their problem or how truly painful it was. We heard what we wanted to hear, went back and built what we thought the potential customer wanted, and then they never used it.

There was clearly a problem, and it was painful. We just didn’t know exactly where the pain emanated from, which meant we couldn’t prescribe the right medicine. We sought what we wanted to hear, not what we needed to hear.

I became a Product Manager because I wanted to master customer discovery and make sure I was equipped to prevent this mistake again. I loved building software, but I wasn’t going to build truly great software until I figured this out. Big thanks to Todd Etchieson for believing in me and giving me that opportunity at New Relic!

The next time I build a startup, I’ll do what I’ve done as a Product Manager since CPUsage: be relentless with customer discovery, seek deep understanding of the problem space, and build products that are 10x better or 1/10th the cost of the alternative.

Have a REAL go-to-market plan

So it turns out that taking a product to market is more than posting about it on Twitter or Hacker News and hoping people will come use it. Who knew?! Through my experience at CPUsage, I learned that my world may seem big and important, but it is just a spec in the universe of software, technology, and the market I am going after.

We honestly had no plan, and no idea how to win customers. We were building a two-sided market and easily figured out how to capture the supply side, but didn’t tackle the demand side. Seems obvious now, but it was far from obvious then. Tell a few friends and it will take off, right?

The next time I start a company, I’ll think about go-to-market from day one. We’ll make demand capture and distribution an inherent aspect of the product. Just because you build it, doesn’t mean they will come.

Focus spending

I now know that in the early stages of a software startup, the most important thing to invest in is customer validation with product. There is little that you can spend money on that is as, or more important than, putting product in the hands of customers and prospects to learn from, and adapt to. Almost anything else is a distraction and likely doesn’t produce significant enterprise value.

Don’t hire sales people. There is no need for a CMO or even a marketing intern. It’s all about engineering at the pre-seed and seed stage. The co-founders can do the rest. Spend to learn, and learn through the eyes of your customers and prospects as they use (or don’t use) your product.

Seek accountability

If it isn’t obvious yet, I should tell you that my co-founders and I had never started a company before, never took funding, never built a real product outside of our day jobs. Not only did we need help, people to guide us, and hold us accountable…we didn’t even know we needed this. As the saying goes, we didn’t know what we didn’t know.

Within weeks our initial close of funding, we attended a portfolio event for our lead investor. For some reason, we thought this was the right time to ask our lead, “you gave us money but didn’t ask for a board seat, don’t you want one?” He probably laughed inside, and then told us that as a seed-stage company without a complete product or any customers, we didn’t need the overhead of a board. We should just focus on building our product, and let him know if/when we needed help.

We didn’t take him up on that offer enough. We talked to our investors frequently, but we were mostly on our own. We asked for help, but in hindsight we only asked for help a fraction of the time we should have, in part because we didn’t know we needed help.

We may not have needed a traditional board of directors at that point, but we certainly needed the accountability that a board with investors/outsiders provides, along with the sense of “in it together” that I believe board members share with founders.

When I do it again, I’ll ensure that I have a framework in place to hold myself more accountable. It may be a board with investors/outsiders in the early days, it may be advisors, it may be a peer group, it will probably be all of the above. Regardless of the form, I’ll seek accountability, asking others to say the things that are heard to hear, tell me when I am wrong, set high expectations, and ultimately walk with me on the journey. Business success is no one’s responsibility except the founders, but we can’t do it alone. That’s just human nature.

More goal setting

Especially in the early stages of a company, it’s simply impossible to plan very far into the future (you decide what “very far” means). That doesn’t mean you can’t plan, and those plans better be more specific than “build valuable things that people will pay for.” How will you know what the thing should be? How will you know when you’ve gotten here? How will you know what valuable means? I may not know what I need to do every day between now and ultimate business success, but I can predict with high degrees of certainty what questions need to be answered, and what milestones must be reached.

When I do it again, my co-founder(s) and I will drive our work from questions we know need to be answered, and milestones we believe need to be met. We’ll put short term and long term goals in front of ourselves. We’ll commit to doing achievable things in the near-term, then do them. We’ll create inflection points and forks in the road, and we’ll ask others to hold us accountable to these things. All this will be done while being firm on the vision and flexible on the details, giving ourselves room to be wrong, or change our minds, in service of the goal.

Fail faster

Did you catch this earlier in the post? About one million dollars and four years? As first-time founders, we falsely believed that stretching our money out as long as possible would give us the best opportunity to learn and build for success. We were so, so wrong! Our frugality meant we did less, in more time, and impacted our ability to learn quickly, from meaningful product development. Sure, we had 4 years to learn, but those learnings were each less valuable than they would have been had we gotten them in 12-18 months, instead of 48. In fact, we would have had a better chance at success had we spent the same amount of money over a shorter period of time. Building more, more iteratively, and more quickly would have created enterprise value. Both in the product itself and the trust we’d have built in our investors and customers. We would have had a better chance because we would have pivoted sooner, but also because we’d have more people believing in us and rooting us on, including ourselves.

We failed too slow because we made all the other mistakes listed above. We didn’t set specific enough short term goals and questions to answer. We didn’t have a framework to keep ourselves accountable to this work. We didn’t spend purposefully to develop products we could learn from. We had no clue how to get our product in the hands of customers. We didn’t really listen to the problem within the problem when speaking to the market or customers. All of these mistakes ate up time. Sure, they ate up money too, but most importantly they ate up time.


The above isn’t an exhaustive list of what I learned the first time I was an entrepreneur, nor is it a complete list of the things I’ll do differently. I am inspired not only by my experience as a first time, early stage entrepreneur, but also through my work in Product Management at New Relic, Pagerduty, and then Zenput. I also love to read and have found The Hard Thing About Hard Things by Ben Horowitz and Sprint by Jake Knapp & John Zeratsky to be incredible sources of inspiration and learning.

I’d also like to thank the people that gave me the opportunity to learn these things, and support me through the experience: Our investors (Ash, Ben, Eric, Omar, Damien), my co-founders (Matt and Shiv), our families (for me: Richard, Gayle, Kristin, Nate, Sabrina, and more), and our friends (including, but not limited to: Robert, Ken, Mike, Bill, Justin, Dionna, Shashi, and more).

Oh, and one last thing. I am doing it again. Now, today, this month, all this year, and next year! I can’t wait, not just to do it, but to do it better this time! Watch this space for more.

Effective Corporate Leadership

Leadership is a quality that society values. It can be seen early on in a person’s life. It benefits those that excel at it, in school, in sports, with friends, and in careers. Many believe that people are born leaders, that it comes naturally.

I believe that leadership is a quality that a minority of people are born with. I also believe that one’s environment will hone this quality for some, and not for others. I believe that if you aren’t born with it, you can learn much of it, but many of the best leaders start with a natural talent.

What I don’t believe is that leadership qualities alone will make you successful as a business leader. Leadership personality traits are not the same as being an effective leader of a company. Being a successful leader in a business means taking your personality traits and using them in specific ways to drive results. Results don’t just happen because someone is a natural leader. Results happen when leaders take action.

Leaders come in all shapes and sizes, so-to-speak. You don’t need a title to be a leader, but some titles require you to be a leader. You can be a great Business Analyst, a great Designer, a great Sales Executive, without being a leader, but you probably won’t be a great Chief Marketing Officer, or a great Vice President of Product, if you aren’t a great leader. It’s a choice, until it isn’t. If you weren’t born with it, you better start figuring it out.

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about what a great business leader is, and what a great business leader does. I say it that way intentionally, is and does. A definition and actions with outcomes. Below is what I’ve come up with. I am sure this is a far from a dictionary definition, probably because my take is less a reflection of business leadership itself, and more about what I personally strive to be as a business leader.

What a great business leader is:

  • Someone that inspires others, to act, to be great, and to grow

  • Someone that coaches and mentors their direct reports, bringing out the best in them

  • Someone that takes responsibility, seeking it out and rising up to it

  • Someone that puts the organization on their shoulders, not as a burden, but to carry others and raise them above the fray

  • Someone with vision for the organization and a course charted to reach it

The above is great, and impressive, but how do great leaders turn those qualities into action and results?

They see the bigger picture

Great, effective business leaders share a similarity with chess players: they see two, three, four moves ahead. They don’t stop at the obvious, they see what others don’t and can identify what really matters. With this vision, they can speak and act in a way that inspires others.

They have a positive outlook

Great, effective business leaders put energy into positives, rather than negatives. They don’t ignore challenges or concerns, but seek balance in their focus and how they communicate with others. They smile, show joy, recognize success, and lift-up the spirits of others. With this quality, they attract others to them and go into every opportunity or challenge leading people that believe in success is not only possible, but likely.

They say the right thing, at the right time

Great, effective business leaders know that listening is more powerful than speaking, and how to use their words for the greatest impact. They often don’t speak first, collecting the information they need to speak with authority later. What they do speak, their message is well thought out and organized. They have a way of knowing exactly what others need to hear, at any given time.

They are calm under pressure

Great, effective business leaders are the rock of an organization when pressure builds. They still worry, but they know that others will observe and mirror their behavior, so they remain clam in all they do, whether that be day-to-day work or a crisis. They don’t overreact or act too quickly, but instead they take a measured approach to challenges that is seen by others as well planned, organized, and thoughtful. They’ll never appear to be overworked or exhausted by the pressures of work.

They act and speak with confidence

Great, effective business leaders believe in themselves, their experience, and their ability to get the job done. When they speak, they believe it. When they act, they know it’s the right thing to do. They are confident, but not cocky. They may have doubts, but those doubts don’t hold them back, and instead drive them towards continuously growing and learning. This confidence inspires others to do the same.

They know the details that matter

Great, effective business leaders stay abreast of the details they need to know. They understand that they can’t lead while in the dark, and they seek to consume knowledge. They are properly informed on what their teams are doing, what their successes are, and what their challenges may be. They don’t micromanage and aren’t know-it-alls, but they recognize that information is the most important input they need to deliver the outputs their organization needs. Most importantly, they use this information to properly coach, mentor, and manage their team.

They show gratitude

A great, effective business leader recognizes the work of others and shows appreciation. They understand organization dynamics and that often teams accomplish greatness, rarely do individuals. They recognize the human side of work and understand the power of gratitude. They deliver that gratitude with heartfelt meaning and genuine appreciation. They deliver gratitude in big and small ways, not requiring a stage to deliver it on.


As I look back on what I just wrote, I see a common theme: Communication. Leaders and effective executives are great communicators. They communicate genuinely, thoughtfully, intentionally, and non-verbally.

I’m going to keep studying leadership and honing my abilities. I recently read a great book on leadership, What You Do Is Who You Are, and I may revisit my favorite book on communication, Crucial Conversations.

My 2019 year in travel

We’ll, I guess this post could be more late than it is! Every year I write two year in review blog posts, usually in January. One about what I read, and one about where I traveled. Finally, in April, I am getting around to my 2019 year in travel!

Two thousand nineteen was a big year of travel for me! I did a decent amount of domestic travel, but international was the big story of the past year. I am lucky that my work provides me the opportunity to see both the country, and the world. From there, I never miss a chance to travel for personal desires, with my wife and I choosing to spend much of our disposable income on travel.

Speaking of my wife, in 2019 we got married in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico! Our wedding didn’t just account for 1 international trip, but two as we went once for planning and once for the wedding. We also took a pre-honeymoon honeymoon a few weeks later to Cabo, which was a first (and probably last) for both of us.

In June I was asked by my employer to travel to London, and I jumped at the chance! Better yet, my wife (who I worked with at the time) was also asked to go so we spent a few extra days on our own dime to get a little vacation out of it, too.

You’ll see in the data below that June was by far my. most active month for travel. After London, I flew right to Atlanta to speak at a conference, then home to San Francisco. A week later I was in New York to speak at another conference. I ended the month with a short hop up to Portland from San Francisco to spend the 4th of July weekend with my parents and friends.

My work brought me to Atlanta a total of 3 times in 2019, and Toronto twice. I changed jobs in October, which will mean fewer trips to Toronto but likely the same or more trips to Atlanta in 2020. I’ll miss my trips to Toronto, it is a fantastic city, but I’ll enjoy even more time in Atlanta, another wonderful place.

The highlight of my year in travel was our honeymoon to Argentina! Neither my wife or I had ever been to South America, and as both wine and steak lovers, Argentina was an easy choice. We flew to Buenos Aires from San Francisco, via Houston, and spent 10 days in the country. At the midpoint of our trip, we flew to Mendoza for a few days of wine tasting, and loved it! We even faced a little hiccup with our travel when the airline union went on one short strike and threatened another while we were holding tickets to return to Buenos Aires. I even took the step of buying backup flights on a budget airline from another South American country, but at the last minute, literally, the country and union came to an agreement that would avoid the strike that was to start the morning of our return flight. It was worth a couple hundred bucks to have a backup plan!

Without further to do, here are the numbers:

  • 86,814 miles* flown (a 27% increase from the prior year)

  • 53 flights (a 2% increase over the prior year)

  • 6 airlines used (I prefer United, as you’ll see below)

  • 6 trips home to Portland (1 more than the prior year, mom)

  • Shortest flight: 325 miles from Washington Dulles to Hartford Bradley

  • Longest flight: 5,368 miles from San Francisco to London (although I earned more from Frankfurt to Atlanta)

  • First flight of the year: Jan 20th from San Francisco to Puerto Vallarta

  • Last flight of the year: Dec 28th from Portland to San Francisco

My 2019 year in books

In 2018, I read 8.5 books (I just couldn’t finish one and stopped halfway through). For 2019, I didn’t set a firm goal for myself, but I surely hoped I’d read more than I did in 2018. For 2019, it looks like I read 7.5 books, a dip from the year before and a negative trend considering I read more in 2017 than in 2018, which was more than 2019.

I’m not going to worry about the amount I read. Sure, I’d like to read more, but I have no lack of new information and entertainment in my life. If I can read more in 2020 than 2019, that would be fantastic. If not, it’s okay.

Without further to do, here is my reading list from last year, with titles linking to each book on Amazon.

Make Time

This is the follow up book from 2 of the authors of Sprint, one of my favorites that I’ve read twice in the past. While Sprint talks about generating and validating product ideas in 1 week, Make Time is focused on how to manage both personal and work time in order to align with your priorities in life. The book has some interesting ideas and was a great reminder that time management matters in life, the book wasn’t exactly a page turner and didn’t blow my mind.

Talking to Strangers

Talking to Strangers is the latest book from my all-time favorite author Malcolm Gladwell. This book is all about communication and how two people can have very different experiences around the same event. It is clearly inspired by the current political and social divide in America today. It’s not Gladwell’s best book, but an interesting read none-the-less. If you really want to dive deeper into this topic, I recommend Crucial Conversations, which was a life changing read for me many years ago.

Overcoming the Five Dysfunctions of a Team

The Five Dysfunctions of a Team is one of the most well known business books of all time, one I read many years ago. In 2018, I was lucky enough to hear the books author, Patrick Lencioni, speak on the topic at a conference. In 2019, I was navigating a team dysfunction at work, and my leadership counterpart in Engineering and I decided to both read this book as a way to arm ourselves with tools for how to help our team get back on track. It was helpful and I am really glad I read through this supplemental to the best seller!

The Subtle Are of Not Giving a F*ck

I kept seeing this book in airport bookstores, and the title really stands out at a glance! The title is brilliant marketing and I had to pick up a digital copy to read! I expected an irreverent, sarcastic view on the world, but what I got was a solid, fantastic read on how to manage the stress of life. This book isn’t about not caring, it’s about how to care about the right things. I highly, highly recommend anyone read it, unless you’ve already reached a state of zen and have no worries in life.

I Used to Be a Miserable F*ck

I actually came across this book when I was searching for The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F*ck. Not only did the title catch my attention, just like the other book I was looking for, the content sounded interesting, so I bought it. This book is made up of very short chapters that each focus on a quality that the author advises men to embrace. You might consider this book an operating manual on how to be a good and masculine human being that others want to be around. The author shares stories from his past, and I related to many of them…which isn’t great considering how miserable this guy, and I were, but also a sign that I’ve moved past those pathetic behaviors that used to define me.

The Lean Startup

This was a re-read for me in 2019 as part of the fledgling book club I was running at work. I like this book because it demonstrates how to quickly, and efficiently, develop products and test ideas. It uses stories from startups, but the concepts can be used by any product development team. I recommended it to my colleagues, and read it along with about 8 others. After reading, we discussed our favorite stories and concepts from the book, imagining how we could do similar in our work at PagerDuty.

The Score Takes Care of Itself

My new boss and CEO of Zenput recommended and gifted this book to me after a discussion we were having about leading teams. This book is the career autobiography of legendary football coach Bill Walsh. Coach Walsh transformed a number of football teams, most notably the San Francisco 49ers, who won 3 Super Bowls under his leadership. Walsh took a completely different approach to leading his organization, and shares his playbook here. I absolutely LOVED this book and have already changed my approach at work. Similar to The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F*ck, Walsh offers some great insight on how to care about the right things, and manage them. Love, love, LOVE this book!

Flow

This is the half book mentioned at the top of this blog post. I saw two friends talking about books with each other on Twitter, and this book was recommended to one by the other. It sounded great, advice on how to get into a flow of life and work such that its effortless. Unfortunately, it reads just too much like a textbook, and I couldn’t get more than 20% through the dry content. Oh well, better to just move on and find something else I would enjoy!


So what’s on my list for 2020? I’ve already started reading Survival of the Prettiest, a gift I received from a coworker. I also plan to read Patrick Lencioni’s new book The Motive, Ben Horowtiz’s latest What You Do Is Who You Are, Monetizing Innovation, and many more!

Americans have become weak

We’ve had it too good, for too long. Even with the 2008 financial crisis, we are in the midst of an incredible stretch of prosperity. Even with mass shootings, never in history have we been as safe from harm as we are today.

Life is really fucking good for many Americans.

So why rock the boat? Why risk what we have individually for the greater good? Why go out on a limb to uphold everything that this country stands for? We can let Washington D.C. fight on our behalf, we don’t want to miss brunch with our friends, followed by shopping for all the gifts we’ll give this holiday season.

In the meantime, our democracy is falling apart. We are at grave risk of losing the system that gave us the prosperity we have. If trust and sanctity are lost, we are screwed. We may never come back from it, but even if we do, it will take a generation or more.

Recently, the President of the United States of America admitted to breaking the law through the way he used a charity bearing his name for his own financial gain and personal benefit. He admitted it! And was fined $2mm by a court of law.

That would have been enough for any past president, Democrat or Republican, to be impeached AND removed from office. Not this president though. As a country, we’ve had things too good for too long, why rock the boat and worry about his actions? They didn’t harm us.

Now, we sit through a toothless impeachment process because the same President used his office, and American taxpayer dollars, to bribe a foreign government to advance his own political goals. While I am happy that Congress is seeking, and will likely approve impeachment, the process is toothless. The Senate will get the case next, and the leadership has vowed to quickly clear the President’s name, allowing him to continue doing what he has done for his entire life.

Democracy as we know it will be gone. A joke of a concept, really. If charity fraud isn’t enough, what is? If bribery with taxpayer funds isn’t enough, what is? If asking for a foreign government to hurt your political opponent isn’t enough, what is?

Democracy will be over.

So what are we doing about it? Nothing, really. We go to our holiday parties and talk about how awful things are, but our conversations are soft.. We get angry on Twitter, then turn our attention to a football game, too afraid to get angry IRL.

We are weak. We are soft. This isn’t about political parties. This is about freedom. This is about losing the democracy that changed the world, for the better.

The same country that was founded on protests, the same country that went to war to enforce our constitution, the same country that took to the streets for Civli Rights and to end the Vietnam War, that same country is doing nothing. We are writing toothless blog posts.

The people of Hong Kong are are risk of losing freedoms, and they are doing something about it. They are protesting, making noise, telling the world they won’t stand for it.

Protesters in Hong Kong. Image credit Studio Incendo.

Protesters in Hong Kong. Image credit Studio Incendo.

Iranians are facing economic hardship and potential collapse, because of the poor geopolitical decisions their government is making. So what do they do? They are protesting, making noise, telling the world they won’t stand for it without a fight.

In Egypt, Tunisia, Jordan, Lebanon, and many other Middle East & North African countries, the people stood up, said they were feed up with corrupt and oppressive governments, and they did something about it. They protested. They risked what little they had and took to the streets. Day and night. Until change happened.

Thailand, Chile, France….they fight when their government does wrong by them.

What are we doing about our corrupt government? What are we doing about our eroding democracy? How are we bypassing our polarized political parties to hold our government accountable?

When the United States Senate takes up Impeachment and decides if President Donald Trump should be removed from office, what will we do? Complain to a fellow pinot loving friend during meaningless conversation at a holiday party? Get mad on Twitter?

Or, protest? Make noise. Tell the world we have standards we are willing to fight for? At least try to save our democracy?